Well i am now finished work and i have a very insecure feeling about not making money.I know this should be the least of my worries but it is hard not to think about. I am looking forward to sleeping @ home and relaxing during the day.
I had my PET Scan today and all went well.I think the hardest part was i was completly tied down and i had an itch on my cheek i couldnt scratch.lol. I have another test @ the Cancer Clinic on Monday the 31st of October @ 9am.This test is called a tracer.I will have an IV inject dye into my arm that will go to my neck to the infected Lymph Nodes.The dye will show the doctor the path he needs to take during surgery to remove the Lymph Nodes.
I will get the results from todays scan on the 7th of Nov. My surgery date has been moved from the 15th of Nov to the 8th of Nov.
I am slowly letting this all sink in and starting to face reality.I have been blocking it out of my mind but everyday it is getting harder for me, i am trying to accept that this will be my life for a while.
Thank you Mom & Donna for being with me today,Thank you BFM thrift Store for your wonderful gift.Thank you Tiffany & Mani for the resturant gift card.Thank you Amy for setting up a meal plan.
Thank you Steven for calling me almost every day to check up on me I love you so much!!!Thank you Lorna for taking me out and spoiling me rotten.
I need to tell you about my best friend Alexis Giles.Alexis & i have been best friends for 16yrs and the past month we have been closer than ever.Alexis is hurting so much for me and it breaks my heart to see her sad and worried.We have shed many tears together over the past month and i dont know what i would do without her in my life.
Thursday 27 October 2011
Thursday 20 October 2011
Waiting
The waiting for me is the hardest part.It is so hard not to let my mind wounder.I have been trying to keep myself busy but the thought of what is a head for me is always in the back of my mind.I got my surgery date yesturday it is on the 15th of November the same day my brother Phil goes home.I wish he could be here but on the same hand i am glad he will not see me in pain.
This week has been not so bad as it has been the first week in 4 weeks that i have not had 3 or 4 appiontments @ the Cancer Clinic.When i am home it is alot easier for me to block out what is going on but as soon as i walk into the Cancer Clinic things become very real.When the doctors are talking to James and myself i find myself thinking i cant believe they are talking about me.At my last appiontment i was sitting in the waiting room feeling sorry for myself when a young lady walked in with no hair and looked very sick,all of a sudden my pitty trip ended i felt so bad for her.
I am so concerned about my husband as this has not just changed my life but it has changed his to.He has been very quiet lately as i know he is going threw alot of the emotions that i have.James has been such a great support taking me to my appiontments,calling me from work every day to encourage me,and the best part he has been cleaning the house with me asking.lol Bless his heart.
On a happy and thankful note my Mom called to tell me a friend of hers had cooked us a few meals to put in the freezer and what a great feeling it was to know there are some home cooked meals in the freezer for James and Ashleigh.
Thank you mom and Donna for the Sobeys card, thank you Doug for the funny text that put a smile on my face,Thank you Tammy for your daily phone calls,Thank you Vera for talking to me about starting a blog.I am also thankful for all the encouraging comments on FB and on my blog.
This week has been not so bad as it has been the first week in 4 weeks that i have not had 3 or 4 appiontments @ the Cancer Clinic.When i am home it is alot easier for me to block out what is going on but as soon as i walk into the Cancer Clinic things become very real.When the doctors are talking to James and myself i find myself thinking i cant believe they are talking about me.At my last appiontment i was sitting in the waiting room feeling sorry for myself when a young lady walked in with no hair and looked very sick,all of a sudden my pitty trip ended i felt so bad for her.
I am so concerned about my husband as this has not just changed my life but it has changed his to.He has been very quiet lately as i know he is going threw alot of the emotions that i have.James has been such a great support taking me to my appiontments,calling me from work every day to encourage me,and the best part he has been cleaning the house with me asking.lol Bless his heart.
On a happy and thankful note my Mom called to tell me a friend of hers had cooked us a few meals to put in the freezer and what a great feeling it was to know there are some home cooked meals in the freezer for James and Ashleigh.
Thank you mom and Donna for the Sobeys card, thank you Doug for the funny text that put a smile on my face,Thank you Tammy for your daily phone calls,Thank you Vera for talking to me about starting a blog.I am also thankful for all the encouraging comments on FB and on my blog.
Tuesday 18 October 2011
The C word.
I decided to start a Blog as many people are concernd about my family and i.I have been getting alot of phone calls from friends who have questions and concerns.I dont always feel like talking these days (believe it or not) so this is my way of sharing with friends how i am doing.
I went to my family doctor 4 weeks ago with a lump on my arm,he sent me to a skin doctor who booked me for surgery 4 days later to have the lump removed.About 8 days affter surgery i recieved a call from my doctor to tell me i needed to come into his office with James right away.I convinced my doctor to tell me on the phone what the results were of the surgery and i wish i had of waited to hear it in his office.I will never forget the words "Julie you have Cancer and we need to see you right away".From that momnent till this day i have a sick feeling in my stomach.My doctor explained to James and i that i have Melanoma the fastest speading Cancer and i need to be treated at the Cancer Clinic.I have had 2 scans one which showed acctive Lymph Nodes in my neck.I have another Scan called A Pet Scan on the 27th which will show the doctors if the Cancer has travelled any futher.After the scan i will be getting surgery on my neck to remove the infected Lymph Nodes and at the same time they will be operatingon my arm again as there is still some Cancer in my good cells. Once the surgerys are done i will be starting Chemo for 15months.
I have been trying to keep in good spirits but some days are better than others.My main concerns are for strenth while i am on treatment i hate the thought of being stuck in bed.I am also thinking of James as i will not be working and this puts alot of pressure on James please pray for him.I have been cooking some meals and putting them in my freezer so that James and Ashleigh are not eating KD every night( i knew i should of taught James how to cook)lol.
I will update my blog when i know more news and @ times James will update the blog also.
I went to my family doctor 4 weeks ago with a lump on my arm,he sent me to a skin doctor who booked me for surgery 4 days later to have the lump removed.About 8 days affter surgery i recieved a call from my doctor to tell me i needed to come into his office with James right away.I convinced my doctor to tell me on the phone what the results were of the surgery and i wish i had of waited to hear it in his office.I will never forget the words "Julie you have Cancer and we need to see you right away".From that momnent till this day i have a sick feeling in my stomach.My doctor explained to James and i that i have Melanoma the fastest speading Cancer and i need to be treated at the Cancer Clinic.I have had 2 scans one which showed acctive Lymph Nodes in my neck.I have another Scan called A Pet Scan on the 27th which will show the doctors if the Cancer has travelled any futher.After the scan i will be getting surgery on my neck to remove the infected Lymph Nodes and at the same time they will be operatingon my arm again as there is still some Cancer in my good cells. Once the surgerys are done i will be starting Chemo for 15months.
I have been trying to keep in good spirits but some days are better than others.My main concerns are for strenth while i am on treatment i hate the thought of being stuck in bed.I am also thinking of James as i will not be working and this puts alot of pressure on James please pray for him.I have been cooking some meals and putting them in my freezer so that James and Ashleigh are not eating KD every night( i knew i should of taught James how to cook)lol.
I will update my blog when i know more news and @ times James will update the blog also.
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