The Unknown

I got some test results this week and some of my liver levels have dropped a bit which is good but some have stayed the same which is bad.I go to the Cancer Clinic again this Monday for more tests and then i will get the results on Feb first.
The hardest part for me in all this is the unknown.It is difficult for me to wait and wonder what is going on with my body.I am still gettinga blood thinner needles everyday to help prevent more clots,James has been giving them to me and he is doing a great job.I am dealing with some side effects from my liver not working properly some of them include a body rash with extrem itch,and i am completely exhausted all the time.I can deal with these side effects as i am determind to stay strong.I will update my blog as soon as i have more news.

Liver Damage

I am not sure if my journey is over or just beginning. I went for my second week of Chemo yesturday to hear the news that i need to be taken of the chemo immediatly as my liver was being destroyed by the chemo.I was taken directlly up to the chemo room and my Picc Line was taken out.My Dr. explained that in the one week of chemo my liver was extremely damaged.Getting chemo will never be an option for me so in saying that i cant help but ask "what about the cancer"?The Doctors will talk to me at a later date about the cancer but for right now their focus is my liver.My options are few, i go to Cancer Care Mondays and Wed to have my liver tested and at this point they are hoping it heals by itself.
This has really left me exhausted in a physical and mental way, it is hard for myself and my family not to worry,we are left with a sick uneasy feeling in our stomachs.