It has been a long few weeks waiting for my Chemo to start but i finally met with my Dr. and had a long talk and set up my date.I begged the doctors to start me after christmas so i can enjoy my family as Phil and Amy and my nieces will be here.I have an appiontment on the 23rd of December for a PICC LINE This is an IV that will go in my arm over my shoulder and to my heart.The IV will stay in for 4 weeks and the Chemo will be injected into the IV.I will go for Chemo every Wed Thurs Fri Sat Sun.It will take about 3hrs each day.On Mondays i have blood work and Tuesday is my day off.This will be for the first 4 weeks and then another change.The PICC LINE will be taken out after the 4 weeks and i will be giving myself injections at home.The doctors will also be teaching James how to give the needles.I am glad i will be able to do this at home as i will not be up to leaving the house.As i am sharing this with you i feel terrified of what is ahead for myself and my family,I had to make a hard decision yesturday but i believe it was the right one.
My Dr. told me that the type of Chemo i am going on is different than other types,it is much stronger and the syptoms are very hard on the body.He also told me that 55% of patients on this Chemo quit after 5-6 weeks.I was told that i will be extremely sick for the full year,as the treatment goes on the symtoms get worse.
I was also told that my chances of the Cancer coming back are 80%.It has been a a tuff couple of days to say the least.I plan on being strong and not quiting my treatmeant even though at this very moment i am full of fear,confusion,and sadness.
Thank you to everyone who sent meals and for thinkng about my family.Please keep us in your thoughts and prayers as things right now are really tuff.
You'll need to calorie load before you start! And if James can't do the needles, I'm not far away :)
ReplyDeleteHey Julie,
ReplyDeleteYou have the long range picture and now you will need to just focus on one day at a time. That is key. Praying for you and beleiving for better days ahead. Love, Alice
Hi Julie,
ReplyDeleteThank you for updating your blog. It's good to hear some of what's in your heart. I'll be praying for you and your family. Been reading Psalms. Reminds me so much that God hears our pain & sorrow & He promises to hold our hand each step of the way. Praying that God will be so very close in these uncertain times.
Donna
Julie,
ReplyDeleteYou don't know us, but we are friends of Phil and Amy. We will be praying for you as your start your treatments. Praying for peace and for healing.
Lynette Polinder